It's been quite some time since I have written. My birthday was a week ago so I was not eating all that well. My rash cleared up quite a bit over the weekend. I still have it but its not as noticeable. I saw my endocrinologist today. My thyroid, b12 and iron levels were re-tested. My b12 levels were great since I was taking a B12 supplement which I plan on stopping when I am officially on the diet. My thyroid levels were a little lower then they were four months ago, and the doctor said that they were optimal. I am quite frustrated with her. She gave me a prescription to increase my dose, but I am not going to fill it. My Total Iron Level decreased my almost 30. My ferritn level went up by 8. I am going to start taking the dessicated liver pills once I order them. I have still been doing the detox baths. I am starting to slowly take coconut oil.

I should be sleeping now. Last night I took a yoga class had a bison burger no bun and did a detox bath. Today when I woke up I felt better emotionally and my rash didn't look quite as bad. I have not been sleeping well for a couple weeks. When I woke up today I hit the snooze 3-4 times. I did not feel like getting out of bed. I went to a coffee shop and got a tea latte and and oatmeal raisin cookie. I did not feel well after wards my tummy hurt and I started to feel nauseous when reading. I drove to Santa Barbara and I started to feel like I was going to be sick ended up leaving work early because of the nausea. Later on tonight I went to get one last ice cream. I felt awful afterwards tummy started to hurt I became incredibly hot then my body returned to normal temperature. the bottom of my ears have been dry and seem to be a lot warmer then usual. I became very upset with a friend and started crying I feel that I am emotionally drained. I can't handle things as I normally would, I've always been very sensitive but now just the slightest things can upset me.

Today was not great. I went to Disneyland for this special lunch and was feeling very depressed and upset about the rash. I went to the Santa Monica farmers market where I had SEVEN oysters, at first I ordered 3 and they went down pretty easily so I got 4 more. When I went to the doctor several months my iron and B12 levels were very low, and oysters are full of B12 and iron. After I ate the oysters I felt a little better. I got to Disney Land and went on a couple of rides then went to lunch I ordered the Alaskan halibut with asparagus which had a pomegranate sauce, it was quite tasty. I didn't pick any desserts myself but had a couple bites of my sisters. Lunch was over at 3:30. I didn't feel like going on any rides so I just went home, I was also very tired. The afternoon is when I usually feel like I am going to fall asleep. On the way home my neck was driving me crazy it burns and it itches. I also noticed my left ear was red and hot. Tonight I am going to the beach with a friend. Years ago when I would get depressed I always went to the beach that was my happy spot I would just walk along ocean and think about things.

This morning I was very irratible, my boss was getting on my nerves. Which is a very easy thing for him to do since he seems like he is going through menapuse. I think he needs to go on the candida diet. This morning my co-worker felt the need to style her hair in the office, the smell of her hairspray made me feel ill. I had to get out of the office. I think she noticed I was offended by the smell since I opened the front door and went outside then took the dogs for a walk. I was quite hungry this morning even though I ate 3 slices of bacon and three eggs. Of course when I make my eggs I make then sunny side up so the yolks are not cooked but it seems like I only eat half the yolk and the other half the dogs lick off my plate. I ate some chocolate its 77% dark chocolate and afterwards I had a stomach ache. Lunch today was a steak salad made will all local ingredients which included avocado, portabella mushrooms, and olive oil. About 30 minutes to closing time our new cleaning lady came in, we used to have a green cleaning lady but my boss fired her and hired a regular cleaner. I felt like I was going to be sick from the chemical smells. I had to open the door and walk outside a couple times. I took another detox bath and after the baths I am just exhausted and don't feel like doing anything so pretty much hit the sheets after the baths.

Last night I took a epson salt bath. I make the water as hot as it can be and it takes me 5 minutes to get into the tub the water is so hot. When I got out of the hot tub my face was tomato red my heart was pounding. I drank 4 cups of water afterwards. Next time I do this I need to drink water before and during the bath. I felt weak and light-headed and went to bed shortly after the bath.
I have been trying to get closer to the candida diet. This morning I had my usual breakfast eggs and bacon. I am always hungry in the morning and trying to not snack since snacking is not recommended on the diet. So I think I need to increase my eggs to 3 rather then 2 and see if that helps. For lunch I had ground beef with salsa. I was driving today and felt like I was about to fall asleep so I stopped at my favorite coffee shop and got my chai chiller. It was awful, it tasted so sweet, I'm not sure how I used to drink those and enjoy them. I drank 1/4th of it and threw it away. For dinner I am having a grass-fed nitrate free hot dog with just ketchup and mustard.

This morning I had a stomach ache for a little bit. Around lunch time my neck was pretty itchy it still looks the same red and splotchy. I was incredibly tired today, I was yawning more then usual and just having a hard time staying awake.

Wednesday the 11th

I haven't had much time to write, having a social life and working full time makes it difficult to find time to blog. One thing that I won't miss once I complete this diet is PMS, starting Saturday night I had a really bad stomach ache which lasted until Sunday night. Not to mention how emotional I become. So that's one thing that will help me stay motivated to do the diet. I was incredibly itchy over the weekend. I scratched at my legs and arms and am now just waiting for them to heal. My left arm is still sore from the scratching. One person on the Candida list recommended putting baking soda on when you itch, so I need to try that.

Monday night I was out at the park with a friend and I had this surge of energy it was probably around 9 o clock and my friend commented on how much energy I have. One thing I have read about adrenal fatigue is that your tired all day and will have this surge of energy. I have a hard time waking up I hit the snooze button 2 to 3 times I am tired all day especially in the afternoon. I feel that I could fall asleep at my desk in the afternoon and when I get home from work I feel exhausted, then when its time to go to bed, I don't feel tired. Another huge indicator that I have adrenal fatigue is that the thyroid medicine that I have been on for almost 4 months has not helped one bit.
Yesterday morning I woke up feeling awful I was light headed and felt weak. The light headiness disappeared during the day but I still felt weak through out the day and I was tapping my feet all day. I felt like I could not stay still that I had this nervous energy. For the past couple hours I have not been feeling well, I feel like I am coming down with something or that I'm about to crash. It felt like my face was flushed, it would get hot and then I would feel cold then hot again. I have also started to feel really weak. My neck still looks horrible and sometimes it is so itchy it's unbearable.

I have decided to try homeopathy again. I was under homeopathic care for about two years and was not seeing much improvement and my homeopath was getting frustrated and I stopped. I have read that undergoing homeopathy can help out when you are on the candida diet. My biggest reason for doing it is to see if it helps with my skin. The initial appointment is incredibly expensive and I have to wait until the 28th to see her. So hopefully I will see some improvement this time.

I have started to loose weight switching over to the diet. I'm 5'4 and I usually weigh 120 but was having a hard time staying at that weight and would get up to 123. As of this morning I was 117.5. I have read that weight loss is expected on the diet and I remember in the past when I gave up carbs I lost several pounds. I have read that some people loose so much weight they are skin and bones and its uncomfortable to sit down, and that frightens me. I have been trying to increase my fats so I have been adding butter to my breakfast and lunch.

I have decided to quit taking anything fermented or drink kombucha for a week or two. I am feeling horrible which is causing me to be depressed. A friend of mine said that I should go off all probiotics and fermented foods for a week or two then slowly add them back in. So I am going to try that and see if I feel better.

How to stay positive?

During the day I kept thinking to myself how do I stay positive during this diet? I am miserable! I am still transitioning and it's horrible. I while be driving just thinking about the horrible rash and I how unhappy I am, and why am I the one who has this candida illness. So there will be bad days, and I wonder if the bad days will outnumber the good days. I think to myself I am doing this so if I have a child, my child will be healthy, and that has become my motivation. I think I need to make a list of all the positive things that will come from this and carry that with me and look at it when I'm having a hard time.

I feel horrible today. I have had this rash on my neck it will be two weeks on Thursday. It's getting bigger and splotchier. Sometimes it feels like its burning and I am so annoyed that I make bad food decisions like the petite cheesecake from the health food store. I sat there looking at it thinking it will be the last cheesecake I eat for 2 years and decided to make the splurge. I also bought blood orange juice yesterday at the farmers market its the best blood orange juice and its been a month or so since I've been to that market so I splurged and bought the smallest bottle they had.

List of Symptoms

Bee has a list of Candida symptoms I am going to write down the ones that I have: PMS, Acne, Itchy Skin, Adrenal Malfunction (I'm not positive on this one but since I have been on thyroid medicine for over 3 months and there is no improvement, I think I have adrenal fatigue.) Hair Loss, Allergies (allergic to hay, chinchilla dust, and sometimes animal hair) Rashes and Eczema. Low Temperature, Digestive issues, Memory Loss, Brain Fog, Low Thyroid Chronic Fatigue, Inability to Concentrate (When I was in elementary school I was tested for ADD, I was very close to having it and it was recommended that I be put on ADD medicine, but my parents refused. I was always day dreaming during class.) Last but not least, Feeling Spaced Out